Lately, I've been missing some people a lot, maybe that's due to stress and maybe it's caused by the fact that I've been away for too long. Getting a little contact from them makes me squeak in joy, even if it's just a sms or a message on MSN. I've never appriciated a phonecall by my parents or the time we spend together as a family so much in my entire life. It's afterall, just a simple phonecall, telling me that they'll pick me up for a simple dinner of Nasi Biryani prepared by my mom and 汤圆/Tang Yuan by my maternal grandma. We get stuffs like that every year but knowing that I'll get to be with them just makes me really happy.
I don't know what wrong with me lately, like my friend MS said, I might've changed a lot. KL was a place where I sought refuge from my family but it turns out to be the excact opposite. Now home is where I escape to.
I'm losing a lot of my confidence and my desiciveness, somehow I've became a very flaky and emotional person. Gosh, I wish I could be stronger and more stubborn, like the person I was before. Back then, I could smile at an opposition and tell him firmly that I'll make it, but now I'm nothing but a worrywart, I worry so much that I spend time worrying and thinking over something rather than trying to do it and finding out ways to get it solved.
Such a loser.
Moral of the story? Just don't be like me.
Tomorrow's to-do list:
8. Email my lect.
It's shower time, jya! All the best to everyone.
Oh and 冬至快乐！ =3