The odd panda with only one black-eye (mokomoko) wrote,
The odd panda with only one black-eye
mokomoko

Get over it.

Life's just too much these days, there's too much to do and too much to worry about. I guess that really shows that I'm growing up as there are a growing number of responsibilities for me. There's the rent, the assignment, looking for job and money. Yea money, we all have a love/hate relationship with it, it's a motivation but at the same time, it's also the lord of modern slavery. Nevermind that.

Lately, I've been missing some people a lot, maybe that's due to stress and maybe it's caused by the fact that I've been away for too long. Getting a little contact from them makes me squeak in joy, even if it's just a sms or a message on MSN. I've never appriciated a phonecall by my parents or the time we spend together as a family so much in my entire life. It's afterall, just a simple phonecall, telling me that they'll pick me up for a simple dinner of Nasi Biryani prepared by my mom and 汤圆/Tang Yuan by my maternal grandma. We get stuffs like that every year but knowing that I'll get to be with them just makes me really happy.

I don't know what wrong with me lately, like my friend MS said, I might've changed a lot. KL was a place where I sought refuge from my family but it turns out to be the excact opposite. Now home is where I escape to.

I'm losing a lot of my confidence and my desiciveness, somehow I've became a very flaky and emotional person. Gosh, I wish I could be stronger and more stubborn, like the person I was before. Back then, I could smile at an opposition and tell him firmly that I'll make it, but now I'm nothing but a worrywart, I worry so much that I spend time worrying and thinking over something rather than trying to do it and finding out ways to get it solved.

Such a loser.

Moral of the story? Just don't be like me.

Tomorrow's to-do list:
1. Pick up new IC
2. Print out my stuffs
3. Finish that damned illustration
4. Pack my luggages (for once, something in the list that delights me! Home, here I come!)
5. Post up notices to rent out my current room (anyone wanting to rent a room around the Setapak area, call me! Yes, I'm desperate.)
6. Send out more resumes (Pray that I get a job in Singapore, and NOT KL)
7. Plan the routes and places to take my buddies to.
8. Email my lect.

It's shower time, jya! All the best to everyone.

Oh and 冬至快乐! =3
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